Holy shit I had such an intense, awful dream this morning before I got up. I had a talk with my boss. We talked about things that had happened previously (in real life we had a teacher meeting about 3 weeks ago in which we had to look at the scores of all of our students, and then had to come up with a plan to better their scores. I was not in the mood because the whole setting was terrible. No focus at all on why a child was behind etc...I told the woman who had organised the whole thing that, and see literally told me to go if my attitude was so negative, because I was holding back the rest of the group. So in my dream last night this real thing was being discussed).
The conversation started with my boss telling me I was too negative and holding back everyone. I then pointed out I did was he always did: not just following the group, but question things. Ask why we do what we do. I told him I find test scores the least important in educating children. And then he told me I was just too negative and this wasn't going to work out and I was fired, instantly. He told me this usually wasn't how things would go, he was, by law, required to do 9 other sessions to better things and work things out etc..., but this was just for the best he thought. To which I, in all my anger, replied "Oh, so you don't even have any legal rights to fire me?" And I started to wonder if I should hire a lawyer. But I also didn't want all that stress.
And then I packed my belongings. Children were around me, not understanding what I was doing. And then I left and no one knew why. The colleague I share a class with, did know and she tried to give me a hug but I told her I didn't want that now. Outside another colleague walked up to me who noticed me grabbing my bike and asked my why I was leaving. And I told hime I was fired. And he didn't believe me. I got on my bike and rode home. Thinking about everyone, how they would ask where I was, what they would think etc..And I felt upset, because I never thought it would go like this.
And then I woke up, my heart pounding.
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The conversation started with my boss telling me I was too negative and holding back everyone. I then pointed out I did was he always did: not just following the group, but question things. Ask why we do what we do. I told him I find test scores the least important in educating children. And then he told me I was just too negative and this wasn't going to work out and I was fired, instantly. He told me this usually wasn't how things would go, he was, by law, required to do 9 other sessions to better things and work things out etc..., but this was just for the best he thought. To which I, in all my anger, replied "Oh, so you don't even have any legal rights to fire me?" And I started to wonder if I should hire a lawyer. But I also didn't want all that stress.
And then I packed my belongings. Children were around me, not understanding what I was doing. And then I left and no one knew why. The colleague I share a class with, did know and she tried to give me a hug but I told her I didn't want that now. Outside another colleague walked up to me who noticed me grabbing my bike and asked my why I was leaving. And I told hime I was fired. And he didn't believe me. I got on my bike and rode home. Thinking about everyone, how they would ask where I was, what they would think etc..And I felt upset, because I never thought it would go like this.
And then I woke up, my heart pounding.
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