When I was young, like, really tiny baby young, I always had this recurring dream. There was a dark street with no street lights on. All the houses were dark too, with no lights on. Except for this one window where bright yellow light was shining. And behind that window was a little girl with long blond curly hair.
Then a big, dark male creature would walk upon that girl and something happened. All of a sudden everything started to spin in my dream with it ending with a rainbow flower near a garbage bin.
Now...this all may sound extremely silly and funny even, but it never was. I had the same dream SO often, that in the end I was afraid to fall asleep. When I was ill, I KNEW I would have the same dream again. For years it went like this, until my mom told me to draw my dream so that we could burn it together. The dream really was gone after that.
But the weird thing is...I never forgot about it, and even today, so many years later, it's still bugging me. I know that as a kid you experience things in a different way than adults. And this one lady told me this dream wasn't meant to be scary at all, but very positive instead. But I never experienced it that way. So...I want to dream that dream again, just once. Just to figure out what really happened, etc...etc...Just to close a chapter. But now that I WANT to dream that dream again, it just doesn't happen...how fucking annoying is that? Hmpf....
Then a big, dark male creature would walk upon that girl and something happened. All of a sudden everything started to spin in my dream with it ending with a rainbow flower near a garbage bin.
Now...this all may sound extremely silly and funny even, but it never was. I had the same dream SO often, that in the end I was afraid to fall asleep. When I was ill, I KNEW I would have the same dream again. For years it went like this, until my mom told me to draw my dream so that we could burn it together. The dream really was gone after that.
But the weird thing is...I never forgot about it, and even today, so many years later, it's still bugging me. I know that as a kid you experience things in a different way than adults. And this one lady told me this dream wasn't meant to be scary at all, but very positive instead. But I never experienced it that way. So...I want to dream that dream again, just once. Just to figure out what really happened, etc...etc...Just to close a chapter. But now that I WANT to dream that dream again, it just doesn't happen...how fucking annoying is that? Hmpf....