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prettygoodyearSo on Christmas day I had a confrontational talk with my family. In which at one point my mom said "You've got the feeling that you can't just be who you are." Which was true, and is true. Am always trying to please everyone and always feel like walking on eggshells.
Anyway...it got me thinking.
I think every person walking on this planet wants to be recognized, loved and just be who they are. Without judgment. "Just let me be". I'm no exception.
Sometimes people are uncomfortable with you, or the way you behave. It often says something about them, not about you.
Example: you're quiet and to yourself on a party. Some people interpreted that as maybe you not being comfortable, or you being snobbish...etc...Again...this says something of them, because it makes them feel insecure, or they don't know what to do with themselves. The hardest, well, for me anyway, to do then is to stay true to myself. Because I often instantly think "See, I'm weird."
Anyway...I get that now. I get now that it doesn't always says something about me and that I don't need to just change myself for the sake of other people.
When someone is actually pissing me off, or bothering me, I need to ask myself why. I get that too. Because that person has the same right as me: to just be who they are.
Writing it all down, it seems so easy. But it so isn't. Because so much happens in a day and it's so easy and quite a normal habit to let emotions take over and do the talking for you.
But when you can control it, when things don't get to you emotionally anymore, when it really doesn't hurt your feelings anymore...life must be such a bliss then!
Anyway...it got me thinking.
I think every person walking on this planet wants to be recognized, loved and just be who they are. Without judgment. "Just let me be". I'm no exception.
Sometimes people are uncomfortable with you, or the way you behave. It often says something about them, not about you.
Example: you're quiet and to yourself on a party. Some people interpreted that as maybe you not being comfortable, or you being snobbish...etc...Again...this says something of them, because it makes them feel insecure, or they don't know what to do with themselves. The hardest, well, for me anyway, to do then is to stay true to myself. Because I often instantly think "See, I'm weird."
Anyway...I get that now. I get now that it doesn't always says something about me and that I don't need to just change myself for the sake of other people.
When someone is actually pissing me off, or bothering me, I need to ask myself why. I get that too. Because that person has the same right as me: to just be who they are.
Writing it all down, it seems so easy. But it so isn't. Because so much happens in a day and it's so easy and quite a normal habit to let emotions take over and do the talking for you.
But when you can control it, when things don't get to you emotionally anymore, when it really doesn't hurt your feelings anymore...life must be such a bliss then!
