Family and neighbors
25 June 2010 21:32Had a day off today cause I swapped days at work with my co-worker. Was supposed to have a friend over, but she wan't sure she could make it and in the end I decided to call it off. Decided to bring my sister and niece a visit instead today. It was much needed and wonderful. I'm so much closer to my sister than I ever was. We talked about our lives and I felt so comfortable. Rosalie is wonderful too. She can't crawl a bit now, laughs a lot and is just so sweet and amazing. Hadn't seen her in over 3 weeks, but the minute she saw me she gave me the biggest smile. All in all I really enjoyed my day there and was sad to leave.
Something completely different: my neighbors all decided to find me weird, odd, cold and sneaky. All because I'm a private person, am quiet and don't shout and yell or show my face much. Instead of just trying to make contact with me (because obviously that's what they want!) they decided to gossip about me. I overheard them last night cause they were talking outside my window. I was pretty upset by it even though I didn't want to. I just don't understand people. At all. Someone isn't as outgoing as you are so that instantly means she's weird and not worth anything? Really? You don't even try to get to know me but base your beliefs on what other people tell you? Am I really that scary because I enjoy spending time alone? I just HATE that those people, who I've got nothing in common with, who don't even try to know me, get to me SO MUCH! I mean...I've got friends who like me for me, at work everyone thinks I'm okay, my family loves me. But I let them get to me. I should shrug it off, but somehow I can't.
It's moments like these I hate life so much!
Something completely different: my neighbors all decided to find me weird, odd, cold and sneaky. All because I'm a private person, am quiet and don't shout and yell or show my face much. Instead of just trying to make contact with me (because obviously that's what they want!) they decided to gossip about me. I overheard them last night cause they were talking outside my window. I was pretty upset by it even though I didn't want to. I just don't understand people. At all. Someone isn't as outgoing as you are so that instantly means she's weird and not worth anything? Really? You don't even try to get to know me but base your beliefs on what other people tell you? Am I really that scary because I enjoy spending time alone? I just HATE that those people, who I've got nothing in common with, who don't even try to know me, get to me SO MUCH! I mean...I've got friends who like me for me, at work everyone thinks I'm okay, my family loves me. But I let them get to me. I should shrug it off, but somehow I can't.
It's moments like these I hate life so much!
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