Yesterday I posted a long entry in Dutch, mostly because I was too upset and frustrated to write in English. Today is a wee bit better, but not completely.
A few days ago I posted an entry about what to do. A colleague of mine not returning back to work and my boss asking me if I could teach that class for 2 days a week, leaving my own class behind. I said I'd think about it. Tuesday evening I had a chat with another colleague who could so easily say no about if he was willing to teach that class. The chat was interesting and it made me more confident in my decision to say no. Which I did yesterday. But my 'no' meant nothing. My boss really just decided to go on the guilt trip and told me there was no other way out and that I had to teach that class for 2 days, leaving me own class behind. And so...really...I never ever cry at work, ever. But I was so frustrated that he didn't even listen that I cried. And he told me "well, it's actually a good thing you're crying, it means you care." Like, seriously? Of COURSE I care about my kids and class.
When I later that afternoon had a chat with my other colleague, who I share a class with, she couldn't really understand. Of course there are other options! If, like my boss pointed out to me over and over again it would only be for a really short time, why could the other teacher of that class not work full time for a while? I still don't understand but am up to a point I won't even bother asking. We'll see what happens and how it goes. They owe me BIG time now though. And I will speak up about it, just has to wait a week, till the holiday is actually over and done with.
At leas they put up an advertisement in the newspaper and someone already replied to it. Would be really nice.
Told the kids in my class today that there might be a chance I wouldn't be returning back to them for a while and the look on some of their faces...poor kids.
So...now we just wait and see what happens.
Edit...something positive: I got a massive big compliment and even applause at work today, which made me feel good about myself! I had a parent calling me during lunch break and she just raved on and on and on. I thought I was actually kinda bitchy towards her, but when I hung up the phone everyone told me they were impressed by how I handled it all. Maybe I'm better at things then I give myself credit for.
