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6 June 2004 19:07![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
prettygoodyearI'm so tired these days and my head feels like it's about to explode. It's full of thoughts and questions and I can't seem to find the switch-off button. The tiniest things feel like major obstacles these days, but whenever i sit down for a minute, my mind goes wild on me and i have to do this and that.
I have so many questions right now, but so little time to get them answered. I just go and do this and that, while my body screams for some time off.
And then guilt enters my head, cause i can't seem to understand why I, still so young, feel like an old wreck these days. So many people seem to be able to do so much more than me and still feel okay. While I, after a week of work, NEED at least two days to recover from it. Not because I'm ill, just because I'm me...this HSP being who experience everything a billion times more intense than other people....
But try to explain that to the world, ha...if i have a hard time understanding it, than how the hell should they be able to understand it?
Anyway...gonna do the dishes now, so at least the kitchen will look neat again and I won't feel so guilty for all the mess. Then I need to start packing for my short camp tomorrow...I HATE camping...haha.
I have so many questions right now, but so little time to get them answered. I just go and do this and that, while my body screams for some time off.
And then guilt enters my head, cause i can't seem to understand why I, still so young, feel like an old wreck these days. So many people seem to be able to do so much more than me and still feel okay. While I, after a week of work, NEED at least two days to recover from it. Not because I'm ill, just because I'm me...this HSP being who experience everything a billion times more intense than other people....
But try to explain that to the world, ha...if i have a hard time understanding it, than how the hell should they be able to understand it?
Anyway...gonna do the dishes now, so at least the kitchen will look neat again and I won't feel so guilty for all the mess. Then I need to start packing for my short camp tomorrow...I HATE camping...haha.