Well I know it's just a spring haze

End of February I'll be returning to Ireland once more for 6 days. Decided to just go for it last night around midnight. Staying there at that time is kinda cheap, flight as well and I've never been there during the winter. Will most likely be cold and wet, but I don't care. Just being away from home, in the quiet, beautiful surrounding is just what I need. Shame it's still 2 months away though. 

These days my life is far from amazing and I'm going through some kind of midlife crisis. It's not a fun feeling, a feeling I've been having for far too long. Panic attacks, loads of fears and crying. Overwhelmed and just so, so scared. Not fun. And the fact that I'm more than introvert doesn't really help much either. It, too, shall pass. But issues from the past really need to be dealt with otherwise I'll be stuck in this stage of life forever and I don't want to. 

Off I go now to take a long, hot shower. Two more days till the christmas holiday.