Well I know it's just a spring haze

will there ever be a home for me where I'll feel happy and comfy? Right now I feel like I'm sharing a house with 4 other families...they bounce upstairs, and yell and scream downstairs and it's just like they're actually IN my apartment. I never feel totally comfy here because of all the noises and i wonder how long I'll have to live her and if I'll ever find a home with not so much sounds and noises from the neighbors...
I'd love to be able to have a two story house..with a garden and thick walls in between my neighbors...so that at least no one will leave above me and underneath me...it may seem a small problem, but to hear them talk, take shower, smell what they're cooking, smell when they have been smoking, hear when they are having sex...well...no thank you...it's just fucking me up..i can't stand all those noises at all...

So..i'm just crossing my fingers that something will come along...a house I can afford to buy...I have it all pictured in my head..but i'm scared to think it will be my new home...cause i'm scared it will be another disappointment...I had my hopes up so hight with this place and so far it never felt like home...just a place i wanna run away from...all those people around me...they freak me out

I'm so weird...anyway...within now and not too long I wanna get some signs..some signs to tell me what will happen next and what to do...