Fuck it

[prettygoodyear]

 Well, progress has not been made whatsoever health wise. In an hour I'll return to the hospital to have a talk with the oncologist. The side effects of the chemo have been massive so far, and yesterday I called the nurse while in tears. I have to be prepared for being submitted to the hospital tonight, but I don't want to. It means that the little freedom I still had, is then gone. But I also know that the current situation isn't ideal either. I just wish I was feeling better, could do my own thing again, have a decent meal etc...

I hope the talk with the oncologist will bring me something positive, something to give me my strength and faith back. There's little positivity left at the moment...