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prettygoodyear Another week has passed. A week in which I got to decide which road to take in order to get better, and also learned what kind of cancer I have to beat. Apparently my cancer is hormone based and also HER2-positive. Which isn't as positive as it sounds, because it means the tumor grows kinda fast and can metastasis (sp?). So far there are no signs the cancer has spread to anywhere, but yeah, prognoses for this kind of cancer aren't as positive as other types. Which is kind of a shock, because not only do I go from being healthy and well, to having cancer, to having bad cancer.
Lucky for me there's currently a study in my country with chemo and immuno therapy combined at the beginning. I fit the profile for this study and was asked to take part in it. It means I have to travel further to get treatment, but in The Netherlands, further still means less than an hour away. It also means I am being watched and observed even better and get better treatment that hopefully will cure me completely. So I've decided to take part in it. Before I can do so, all sorts of tests need to happen first, to see if I'm healthy enough to take part in it.
It's going to take a while before I can leave everything behind, but that's just how it is. It's still surreal most of the time, it still hasn't sunk in that I have cancer, that I am now a part of that group, that there is a chance I won't get cured. I try not to think about that too often and just try to remain positive, but it is just slowly sinking in.
Next year there will be no class to teach, there will only be this cancer treatment. My main focus this upcoming school year is to get better and well again. I've often wished to not have to worry about my job for a while, but yeah, not in this way though.
I still like to think this is all happening so that I can completely change my life, learn a lot from it and start over. Hopefully a year from now I'll be clean and well again. And hopefully this cancer won't be caused by some faulty DNA, because I think it's enough as it is. But I won't know that till about 6 months from now.
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Lucky for me there's currently a study in my country with chemo and immuno therapy combined at the beginning. I fit the profile for this study and was asked to take part in it. It means I have to travel further to get treatment, but in The Netherlands, further still means less than an hour away. It also means I am being watched and observed even better and get better treatment that hopefully will cure me completely. So I've decided to take part in it. Before I can do so, all sorts of tests need to happen first, to see if I'm healthy enough to take part in it.
It's going to take a while before I can leave everything behind, but that's just how it is. It's still surreal most of the time, it still hasn't sunk in that I have cancer, that I am now a part of that group, that there is a chance I won't get cured. I try not to think about that too often and just try to remain positive, but it is just slowly sinking in.
Next year there will be no class to teach, there will only be this cancer treatment. My main focus this upcoming school year is to get better and well again. I've often wished to not have to worry about my job for a while, but yeah, not in this way though.
I still like to think this is all happening so that I can completely change my life, learn a lot from it and start over. Hopefully a year from now I'll be clean and well again. And hopefully this cancer won't be caused by some faulty DNA, because I think it's enough as it is. But I won't know that till about 6 months from now.
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