The first week
23 August 2014 11:55![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
prettygoodyearI managed to survive the first week of working and teaching full time. It was intense, I feel like I'm stuck in some kind of cocoon that limits my world a lot. The teaching wasn't bad, it was nice. It was also nice to own my own classroom, know that everything I do will be (mostly) for me. But I made long days and it is just overwhelming. A part of me is enjoying herself, another part of me just feels trapped.
This week also didn't seem to ever end, it was one of the longest weeks of my life.
Of course this is something I need to get adjusted to. The first week of school is always more stressful too, because of new things, a new rhythm etc...But I am still not too sure about all of this. I just need to do this for a bit longer I guess. But the weekends already feel short and not long enough to adjust. I currently don't even have a life outside of my work because I am just so tired and when I get home all I can do is watch silly TV shows.
It's still alright I do this though, it's helping me to know myself better as a person and teacher, I see how it will help me to get stronger and understand my capabilities better. But I'm still not sure I would be able to do this for more than a year, but also doubt I could go back to sharing a class with someone else. We will see.
Right now I need to get out of the house and breathe in something else to get school out of my head. And then get my house clean again, do my laundry etc...and hopefully also enjoy a nice, quiet Sunday before another long week will start.
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This week also didn't seem to ever end, it was one of the longest weeks of my life.
Of course this is something I need to get adjusted to. The first week of school is always more stressful too, because of new things, a new rhythm etc...But I am still not too sure about all of this. I just need to do this for a bit longer I guess. But the weekends already feel short and not long enough to adjust. I currently don't even have a life outside of my work because I am just so tired and when I get home all I can do is watch silly TV shows.
It's still alright I do this though, it's helping me to know myself better as a person and teacher, I see how it will help me to get stronger and understand my capabilities better. But I'm still not sure I would be able to do this for more than a year, but also doubt I could go back to sharing a class with someone else. We will see.
Right now I need to get out of the house and breathe in something else to get school out of my head. And then get my house clean again, do my laundry etc...and hopefully also enjoy a nice, quiet Sunday before another long week will start.
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