Invisible

[prettygoodyear]

Sometimes I just feel so goddamn invisible and unimportant. Sometimes I miss good, close friendships, that are equal. Where someone asks me "Hey, and how are you really doing?". Someone I can have long, deep conversations with.

Too many times I've had people walk into my life who said "You are amazing, such a wonderful friend" and then minutes later ignore me etc...
Or people who call themselves a friend, then forever keep quiet and only call you when they need something.

I'm sick and tired of being the one asking to meet up, always making the call etc...

But I am sucktastic with friendships as well I guess...tend to run away from a friendship quickly when I feel trapped. Truth is that I've had to deal with so many fucked up friendships that I don't know how to handle one anymore. I don't know how to deal with people anymore.

Today is just not my day. I feel overly sensitive, emotional and just so goddamn invisible and unimportant. But as the icon said: ignore this text. Sometimes I just need to rant. I might just delete this tomorrow.