Work has started again

[prettygoodyear]

So been back to work again the past three days. No kids yet, just preparations. Spent most of the time copying stuff. How exciting. Have to say I'm absolutely not looking forward to next year. Am so sick of teaching all these different kind of classes. Will even be teaching an extra hour, which will be cut from the hours I usually spent on preparing lessons for the rest of the school. Which sucks a lot, because those hours have been cut a lot the past couple of years. Ugh...really...so not looking forward to next year. So, so, so sick of being a substitute teacher most of the time. It's really sucky to be one, because you don't bond with the kids too well, it's only for a couple of hours a week and it's always SUCH a big battle to fight every week. Feel like a police officer most of them time, it's not good for my self-esteem and am just so sick of it. But alas...at least I've got a job and income, but am just loving it all less and less. Am just sick of always struggling, of feeling like the shittiest teacher ever. After teaching for 8 years now it would be so nice to finally be able to say I do a good job, but with all the substitute teaching, it just doesn't feel like it one bit...sigh.

At least I've now got 3 days off before work starts for real again.