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prettygoodyearSo, yeah...in about 4 hours from now I'll be getting my first (test) driving lesson. In a real car. On a real road. Millions of people drive a car every day. Most people even get their drivers license as soon as I can. But not me. Cause I'm SCARED TO DEATH!
It's something I have to do now though, just so at least I will know what it's like to sit behind the steering wheel and drive a real car. Cause I believe I can't do it. Just like I happen to believe I'm really not good at pretty much everything. This is something that can help me proof myself that I'm capable of a lot more than I gave myself credit for.
And really...a big part of me would love to be able to drive a car, cause it is the ultimate sense of freedom you can get, right? When I was in Ireland I often imagined driving my car around, where I would go, where I would stop etc...
But I'm fucking nervous for it all. It's just a test lesson even, so no strings attached whatsoever. I can't even believe I'll be driving down a real road, with real cars. But what victory it will be once I've done it. And maybe then I'll decide to take real lessons. So that in a few months time I will get a real drivers license and I'll be able to drive a car myself, maybe even get myself a small little car so that I can go anywhere whenever I want.
But shit...right now I wish it would be six hours from now so that the whole experience is at least over and done with. So nervous and scared!
It's something I have to do now though, just so at least I will know what it's like to sit behind the steering wheel and drive a real car. Cause I believe I can't do it. Just like I happen to believe I'm really not good at pretty much everything. This is something that can help me proof myself that I'm capable of a lot more than I gave myself credit for.
And really...a big part of me would love to be able to drive a car, cause it is the ultimate sense of freedom you can get, right? When I was in Ireland I often imagined driving my car around, where I would go, where I would stop etc...
But I'm fucking nervous for it all. It's just a test lesson even, so no strings attached whatsoever. I can't even believe I'll be driving down a real road, with real cars. But what victory it will be once I've done it. And maybe then I'll decide to take real lessons. So that in a few months time I will get a real drivers license and I'll be able to drive a car myself, maybe even get myself a small little car so that I can go anywhere whenever I want.
But shit...right now I wish it would be six hours from now so that the whole experience is at least over and done with. So nervous and scared!
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Date: 30/7/10 11:08 (UTC)But now I love driving, even though I don't get to do it often since I no longer have any reason to have a car. It opens up a whole new world of freedom.
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Date: 30/7/10 17:48 (UTC)