The good and the scary
9 May 2016 22:16 Last weekend I spent with the family in the south. We had absolutely wonderful, warm, sunny weather (opposite to a week before, where I was still wearing my winter coat, gloves and scarf). It was wonderful, relaxed and just blissful.
And tomorrow I'll get surgery. My first real surgery, and it's scary as fuck. Spent the entire day in the hospital today, in preparation for surgery tomorrow, and it all didn't go as it was supposed to. Radio active fluid that was supposed to light up the glands in touch with the tumor, didn't work and so had to massage the breast which resulted in lots of tears, freaking out, etc...Hadn't touched the breast for weeks, ever since finding out it was cancer. So this was a thing, really.
Surgery tomorrow and I still can't believe it's really happening. I don't feel ill, I'm not in pain, why do I need surgery? I know why, but it's so surreal. So freaking nervous about it as well.
Some pics from last weekend then:








And tomorrow I'll get surgery. My first real surgery, and it's scary as fuck. Spent the entire day in the hospital today, in preparation for surgery tomorrow, and it all didn't go as it was supposed to. Radio active fluid that was supposed to light up the glands in touch with the tumor, didn't work and so had to massage the breast which resulted in lots of tears, freaking out, etc...Hadn't touched the breast for weeks, ever since finding out it was cancer. So this was a thing, really.
Surgery tomorrow and I still can't believe it's really happening. I don't feel ill, I'm not in pain, why do I need surgery? I know why, but it's so surreal. So freaking nervous about it as well.
Some pics from last weekend then:







