Weight...advice needed
19 May 2014 20:25 In April 2009 I stepped on the scale: 103 kgs. I was not happy with that number and decided something needed to be done. I watched my food intake and tried to work out more. The result was that in September of that year I had dropped to 89 kgs. Still too much, but a lot less than before. And then winter came...and winter means I somehow crave more food etc...I really wanted to drop even more weight, but as winter progressed, I gave up more and more and started to eat more. In the end all the weight I had lost, was gained back, plus some. Because last summer I stepped on the scale again and was welcomed by the numbers 107. I was, again, not amused. And again, decided to do something about it. I even managed to get through the months october, november and december without giving in. I dropped 7 kgs. And then the x-mass holidays happened, I found it hard to keep track of my food intake and after not writing it down for a couple of days, I fucked up, again. Somehow that voice inside my head took over again and told me that all that food wasn't too bad and wouldn't hurt too much.
Last week I stepped on the scale, again, and was welcomed with a nice 106 kgs. Yeah...
I really want to be able to drop all the weight and get back to the 75/76 kgs again I once was 10 years ago. I always manage to start well and manage to do well for a couple of months and then I return to old, bad habits again. So this time I'm scared for even trying because a part of me is convinced that I will eventually give up and give in again. I tried to set goals for myself, like, get below 100 kgs and then reward myself with something, but it doesn't work.
The mother of and ex-student of mine managed to drop all the weight (and keep it off) because she let her daughter weigh her every week, and also motivate her. Maybe I need something like this? Ask for some support, have someone weigh me and guide me?
Does anyone have suggestions/idea? I really want to lose weight because I want to be in better health again, my knees are aching, when it's warm and I do any kind of activity, I sweat, I'm out of breath a lot quicker and well, I want to be able to wear my clothes again and look nice, not have that fat belly in the way. But I want to do this and maintain it. Because I know I can drop some weight, but I want to keep it off, for good and not fall back into old, bad habits again. I want to do it at a slow pace, don't over-exercise, because I'm just not that kind of person and won't be able to do that for the rest of my life. I just need structure, something I can manage and maintain. I really want to be able to control that voice that tells me overeating is good.
Any help or advice is more than welcome!
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Last week I stepped on the scale, again, and was welcomed with a nice 106 kgs. Yeah...
I really want to be able to drop all the weight and get back to the 75/76 kgs again I once was 10 years ago. I always manage to start well and manage to do well for a couple of months and then I return to old, bad habits again. So this time I'm scared for even trying because a part of me is convinced that I will eventually give up and give in again. I tried to set goals for myself, like, get below 100 kgs and then reward myself with something, but it doesn't work.
The mother of and ex-student of mine managed to drop all the weight (and keep it off) because she let her daughter weigh her every week, and also motivate her. Maybe I need something like this? Ask for some support, have someone weigh me and guide me?
Does anyone have suggestions/idea? I really want to lose weight because I want to be in better health again, my knees are aching, when it's warm and I do any kind of activity, I sweat, I'm out of breath a lot quicker and well, I want to be able to wear my clothes again and look nice, not have that fat belly in the way. But I want to do this and maintain it. Because I know I can drop some weight, but I want to keep it off, for good and not fall back into old, bad habits again. I want to do it at a slow pace, don't over-exercise, because I'm just not that kind of person and won't be able to do that for the rest of my life. I just need structure, something I can manage and maintain. I really want to be able to control that voice that tells me overeating is good.
Any help or advice is more than welcome!
This entry was originally posted at http://prettygoodyear.dreamwidth.org/273974.html. Please comment there using OpenID.
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