Things change
29 November 2011 19:40![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
prettygoodyearNot even only in real life, but also on the internet things change, people leave, things get quiet. I don't post entries nearly as often as I used to. Other people who did, don't either anymore. Forums I used to frequent get quiet, people leave. Facebook is just an empty shell with no real, meaningful, deep interaction.
And I really start to miss being in a relationship. It's about time I get out of this teenage life I still seem to be living, even though I really am in my 30's. What is my life turning into, what have I managed to do with it so far? I still feel like I just entered my 20's and somehow still stuck in time somehow? I don't feel 32 at all. Though I also don't know how that's supposed to feel. But should I not be married by now and have kids? Instead of still living the life of student; doing as I please and no real commitment to anything but work? I feel like before I know it it's all too late and I missed out on things that could have been and now will never happen.
On a totally different note: I got a library pass once again! Must have been about 10 years since I last had one. Usually just bought my books. But I live in town with no real, awesome bookstores and we have a brand new, gorgeous amazing library. I signed up again today though and for €34,- a year I can rent 100 books/DVD's/CD's. Awesome!
And I really start to miss being in a relationship. It's about time I get out of this teenage life I still seem to be living, even though I really am in my 30's. What is my life turning into, what have I managed to do with it so far? I still feel like I just entered my 20's and somehow still stuck in time somehow? I don't feel 32 at all. Though I also don't know how that's supposed to feel. But should I not be married by now and have kids? Instead of still living the life of student; doing as I please and no real commitment to anything but work? I feel like before I know it it's all too late and I missed out on things that could have been and now will never happen.
On a totally different note: I got a library pass once again! Must have been about 10 years since I last had one. Usually just bought my books. But I live in town with no real, awesome bookstores and we have a brand new, gorgeous amazing library. I signed up again today though and for €34,- a year I can rent 100 books/DVD's/CD's. Awesome!
