Another Tori rant
17 October 2011 19:26![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It was 2001 when I saw Tori Iive for the first time ever. I had longed to see her live since 1996, so quite some time. I missed the choirgirl tour by just days: when I found out she was touring, the concert was sold out and back in those days it wasn't as easy to find tickets on the internet. I was absolutely devastated back then. Watched the Live in NY video a dozen times, and often wondered what it would be like to see her live.
When I finally saw her live in 2001 I watched her from a far distance, but it was amazing. It took me days to recover from it. Especially after I learned there had been a M&G afterwards. Since then, more concerts followed. 2003 was emotional as well, I even had a dream afterwards that was so intense, I'll never forget it. Whenever other tours were announced, I just had to go there. Even went to see her in London!
This year tickets also went on sale and I bought tickets for 4 shows. Without thinking much about it. I sold 2 tickets, as I wrote before. Now there's only 2 shows left. One will happen tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it at all and am only going because I'm going with a friend who I didn't want to let down. And there's also Brussels in 2 weeks, but I'm seriously considering just not going there at all. To only go the show tomorrow and make that my last Tori show for a while. Because to be honest, I haven't been listening to her in forever, the new album still doesn't grab me and these days I just don't feel her at all. I don't look forward to spend the entire day tomorrow with other Toriphiles, waiting for a M&G. I met her. Three times. That's more than enough. Time to close a chapter, or even book.
Now to just try and enjoy myself tomorrow. And then also find the courage to cancel the Brussels show. Because with that, I'm letting a friend down.
When I finally saw her live in 2001 I watched her from a far distance, but it was amazing. It took me days to recover from it. Especially after I learned there had been a M&G afterwards. Since then, more concerts followed. 2003 was emotional as well, I even had a dream afterwards that was so intense, I'll never forget it. Whenever other tours were announced, I just had to go there. Even went to see her in London!
This year tickets also went on sale and I bought tickets for 4 shows. Without thinking much about it. I sold 2 tickets, as I wrote before. Now there's only 2 shows left. One will happen tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it at all and am only going because I'm going with a friend who I didn't want to let down. And there's also Brussels in 2 weeks, but I'm seriously considering just not going there at all. To only go the show tomorrow and make that my last Tori show for a while. Because to be honest, I haven't been listening to her in forever, the new album still doesn't grab me and these days I just don't feel her at all. I don't look forward to spend the entire day tomorrow with other Toriphiles, waiting for a M&G. I met her. Three times. That's more than enough. Time to close a chapter, or even book.
Now to just try and enjoy myself tomorrow. And then also find the courage to cancel the Brussels show. Because with that, I'm letting a friend down.