I had three friends coming over this weekend. I wasn't really looking forward to it, since I knew we would have a serious conversation about some heavy stuff. And then there was this one friend coming over who was here last week as well and who left me distressed. She made me doubt I would ever be able to enjoy the company of other people for a weekend.
Anyway...I enjoyed the weekend. One of my friends I hadn't seen or talked to in a long time, and she wasn't doing too well. I was anxious about meeting her again, since she was the reason we would have a deep and serious conversation. But I felt most comfortable around her.
My other friend...well...I'm kind of shocked about my reaction towards her. She's a wonderful person, but there's something about the way she acts that annoys me so much and when something annoys me, I can't ignore it. But at least I learned that I can handle a weekend like this, but it really depends on who I spend it with. Now I need to figure out why this one friend annoys me etc...
She is the one I'm supposed to go on a holiday with for three weeks, but right now the thought of it alone freaks me out. I can't handle being away with her for three weeks, it will exhaust me a lot.
Anyway...time to explore the feeling I guess.
Other than that: just one more week to go until I have another week off. I want to have this week of instead, cause I'm so tired and drained. I feel a bit ill as well, but nothing major enough to call in sick this week. Just 5 more days...can't wait! Can't also wait to spend a weekend at home, all by myself. Gosh...
Anyway...I enjoyed the weekend. One of my friends I hadn't seen or talked to in a long time, and she wasn't doing too well. I was anxious about meeting her again, since she was the reason we would have a deep and serious conversation. But I felt most comfortable around her.
My other friend...well...I'm kind of shocked about my reaction towards her. She's a wonderful person, but there's something about the way she acts that annoys me so much and when something annoys me, I can't ignore it. But at least I learned that I can handle a weekend like this, but it really depends on who I spend it with. Now I need to figure out why this one friend annoys me etc...
She is the one I'm supposed to go on a holiday with for three weeks, but right now the thought of it alone freaks me out. I can't handle being away with her for three weeks, it will exhaust me a lot.
Anyway...time to explore the feeling I guess.
Other than that: just one more week to go until I have another week off. I want to have this week of instead, cause I'm so tired and drained. I feel a bit ill as well, but nothing major enough to call in sick this week. Just 5 more days...can't wait! Can't also wait to spend a weekend at home, all by myself. Gosh...
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