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16 February 2005 00:26Sometimes I feel like I'm a little bit autistic: I can't handle changes, not even the smallest. Things have to go the way I have planned them, cause if not, then I'll freak out a little bit, or get extremely tired, or get massive headaches. Today was one of those days. I planned to go to Amsterdam this afternoon with my family, which we did. I also planned on maybe buying myself a bigger tv, cause the one I had was just too small. I actually bought a bigger tv (which looks mighty great as well, now all I need to do is get my cable to work properly, cause apparently there's something wrong with it, cause a few channels won't show, or in a very bad condition). Anyway...we also went to Ikea and I bought a huge photo poster there to hang above my couch. It was a fun afternoon etc...etc...however....however...things went a little different than I planned. First my parent's came over too for a drink, which was nice, but which wasn't how i planned it. And I think I needed my alone time right that moment, cause shopping always leaves me totally exhausted and empty. Besides that my dad put my new tv in the living room and moved my old, tiny tv to my bedroom. which shouldn't be a problem, of course, but to me it is. I don't know...I just can't seem to handle small changes like that at all. I look at my new tv and think it looks great, but then again, I miss that old tiny tv of mine.
Aaaaaaaaaanyway...we also put the huge photo poster together, so now there's stuff lying all around me. And trust me: I'm not a neat person at all, but somehow I've been extremely neat the last couple of days. So...I just look around, and see that my mom did half the dishes, so there's still a little mess in the kitchen, and then I see all this stuff lying around me and I have no idea what to do with it right now. I'll move it tomorrow, cause then I can take it out, but right now it's just confusing me too much. It just looks way too chaotic at the moment.
Above all, I have a massive headache as well now.
And it sounds so incredibly stupid, but that's why I began this post with "Sometimes I feel like i'm a little bit autistic", cause I feel weird en upset right now, over NOTHING!
Aaaaaaaaaanyway...we also put the huge photo poster together, so now there's stuff lying all around me. And trust me: I'm not a neat person at all, but somehow I've been extremely neat the last couple of days. So...I just look around, and see that my mom did half the dishes, so there's still a little mess in the kitchen, and then I see all this stuff lying around me and I have no idea what to do with it right now. I'll move it tomorrow, cause then I can take it out, but right now it's just confusing me too much. It just looks way too chaotic at the moment.
Above all, I have a massive headache as well now.
And it sounds so incredibly stupid, but that's why I began this post with "Sometimes I feel like i'm a little bit autistic", cause I feel weird en upset right now, over NOTHING!
