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15 August 2004 13:02![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
prettygoodyearOnly a day to go, and then I'll enter the real world again. Can't believe how fast these 5 weeks have passed. And I can't believe how terrified I am to go back to work again. Even though I know it won't be that bad in the end, I just so don't want to enter the real, dark and scary world again. This Tuesday I have to explain to just about every person why I didn't take the job...nice thing to look forward to, not.
Really, if it was all up to me, I would have put a spell on myself. I would have just made me disappear to another part of the world or anything. But yeah...that's a very unlikely thing to happen though, lol. So, I just force myself to enter this upcoming week and hope nothing but the best will happen...sigh...I feel so distracted from this planet and it's people. They don't understand me at all and I don't understand them either. Oh well, I just have to try and make the best out of it. Just do the working thing because I have to do it, and just try to live for the moments I can be just me.
But no one can tell me this way of living is the right way though. I just won't accept it! I refuse! haha
Really, if it was all up to me, I would have put a spell on myself. I would have just made me disappear to another part of the world or anything. But yeah...that's a very unlikely thing to happen though, lol. So, I just force myself to enter this upcoming week and hope nothing but the best will happen...sigh...I feel so distracted from this planet and it's people. They don't understand me at all and I don't understand them either. Oh well, I just have to try and make the best out of it. Just do the working thing because I have to do it, and just try to live for the moments I can be just me.
But no one can tell me this way of living is the right way though. I just won't accept it! I refuse! haha