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prettygoodyearOkay..I'm like SO fucking mad at life, or actually, mad at myself. For putting myself in this state over and over again! FUCK!!!!!! This is how I feel:
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just touching all keys on my keyboard, smashing them hard. I wanna punch people, wanna hurt myself.
I WANNA BE FREE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For fucks sake, how HARD is it to be just yourself??????????????? Why can't I be proud of myself? Why can't I just be fucking okay with how things are today?
I always thought I loved myself a little bit, but the fact is: I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!! I can't even believe people actually LIKE me, cause what's there to like about me anyway? I HATE myself for even thinking this, but I can't seem to help it either.
Why can't I just be this positive person who can see things from the bright side of life? Why do I always have to make things harder for myself than they truly are?
:-/
uhnserhuievn8y7t9n[qxcm[,,`z.QE[\WPQXC4M',CGSRGJR.EHANRJKAVJAERK.YGUIQ34/HARGHVVNQWJ
just touching all keys on my keyboard, smashing them hard. I wanna punch people, wanna hurt myself.
I WANNA BE FREE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For fucks sake, how HARD is it to be just yourself??????????????? Why can't I be proud of myself? Why can't I just be fucking okay with how things are today?
I always thought I loved myself a little bit, but the fact is: I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!! I can't even believe people actually LIKE me, cause what's there to like about me anyway? I HATE myself for even thinking this, but I can't seem to help it either.
Why can't I just be this positive person who can see things from the bright side of life? Why do I always have to make things harder for myself than they truly are?
:-/
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