mirrors

[prettygoodyear]

I dislike them. While my sister has a crush on them, I try to ignore mirrors as much as possible. My sister can be around mirrors all day long and they can't be big enough for her, while I can't even have a short look at myself in the mirror. Sometimes i do, but then after just a few seconds I turn away from it. Why? Cause the picture the mirror is showing me isn't the picture I have in mind of myself. All the time I see someone I'm not. I feel so different on the inside than what the outside is showing. I don't know, it just shows things that don't do me well and it doesn't show things that it should be showing.
You know that feeling of being trapped? I feel like that all the time. I feel like only 1% of the real me is on this planet. Whenever i look into the mirror I get a bit disappointed. I miss something. I always expect to see the real me, but i never see it, not even in my own eyes. The person who stares at me through the mirror isn't me. I know I shouldn't care about it so much, but I do...

Comments

[lilachaullie.livejournal.com]

Mirrors are just backward views of ourselves over and over and over again! lol

[lilachaullie.livejournal.com]

Nancy maybe you are from another planet as Sylvia Browne says you could be one of those Mystical travellers, I'm not sure if they even realise they are what they are until they are of full knowledge. I'm always at thought ;)

[ex_prettygoodyear337]

you know what, I really do feel like I'm not from this planet. Always felt like it...I've never been able to understand this world and it's people at all.There are days i'm just fine with it, but there are also so many days I just wanna go back to where I cam from. Wherever that may be...lol

[lilachaullie.livejournal.com]

a big planet with a deep dark blue city and a central governnment, simple living and big brains! Fantastic! Okay you and I have to get together and talk about aliens lol.

[ex_prettygoodyear337]

You know what..I'd like to have a chat with you, I like the way you think ;)

[lilachaullie.livejournal.com]

well I added your name to msn messenger I wasn't sure what other messengers you had. I have trillian now and I'm lilachaullie@yahoo hotmail and aol.com so any time. Though I don't get off work tonight til 7:00 and I work til 5:00 tomarrow but I'm here and there, that would rock!

[ex_prettygoodyear337]

I'm off and on on aol...most of the time I just forget that I have it, lol. But I have added you and will check it out every so often, who knows...maybe we're on at the same time :P

[lilachaullie.livejournal.com]

whats your aol name? I'm completely private now. Reason being too many strangers contact me through the site and it gets a bit overwhelming at times unfortunately. so even if you add me you will not see me pop on. but let's do tea!

[ex_prettygoodyear337]

my aol name is "snowitchy". ;)

[lilachaullie.livejournal.com]

Oh how pretty! I would have never guessed!