sweet dreams
29 January 2008 22:31![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
prettygoodyearFor several weeks now I've been having weird, strange, emotional draining dreams. But mostly just really intense dreams. Last week for instance I dreamt my sister had died, and my parents just came to tell they would be going to the other side as well. I asked them if I please, please come with them as well. Cause I just couldn't bare the thought of being all alone then. But then their cat and my Frits showed up and I realized I couldn't just leave them behind. No one would be there to take care of them. But there was still the feeling of loneliness.
Then last night I dreamt I had a serious illness. Something incurable. I was totally paralyzed as well, could only blink with my eyes. Though that didn't feel too awkward or uncomfortable. I also remember lying in bed feeling all weird.
Anyway...in that dream I was told I would be dying. And I just looked up to my mom and said: "Remember our last talk where I said I wouldn't mind dying? Well...now that it's all real I don't want to go just yet."
And it's dreams like those I've been having for the last couple of weeks. Not all about death, but just these weird dreams. Dreams in which so much happens, and often things that don't completely make sense and I'm aware of that as well.
I often wake up feeling weird or upset.
Death means change though, so I guess I'm about to make a decision about something, or will have to make a change, but am scared of it in some way. Dunno really.
The dreams are not completely uncomfortable either for some strange reason (I'm the kind of person who in a way even enjoys a nightmare). They are just weird, and totally mess up my day from time to time.
Edit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOn5Eudj5tI
Just...I don't like all songs by Damien Rice. I really enjoyed O, am trying to bond with 9, but this song is just...wow. Goosebumps for sure. Really a song that touches me at the moment.
Then last night I dreamt I had a serious illness. Something incurable. I was totally paralyzed as well, could only blink with my eyes. Though that didn't feel too awkward or uncomfortable. I also remember lying in bed feeling all weird.
Anyway...in that dream I was told I would be dying. And I just looked up to my mom and said: "Remember our last talk where I said I wouldn't mind dying? Well...now that it's all real I don't want to go just yet."
And it's dreams like those I've been having for the last couple of weeks. Not all about death, but just these weird dreams. Dreams in which so much happens, and often things that don't completely make sense and I'm aware of that as well.
I often wake up feeling weird or upset.
Death means change though, so I guess I'm about to make a decision about something, or will have to make a change, but am scared of it in some way. Dunno really.
The dreams are not completely uncomfortable either for some strange reason (I'm the kind of person who in a way even enjoys a nightmare). They are just weird, and totally mess up my day from time to time.
Edit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOn5Eudj5tI
Just...I don't like all songs by Damien Rice. I really enjoyed O, am trying to bond with 9, but this song is just...wow. Goosebumps for sure. Really a song that touches me at the moment.
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