First of all: the armpit was cancer free! That was good news. I also heard that tomorrow will be the first chemotherapy day. I have to be there around 10:00 and will be there for some hours, due to all sorts of medications I'll get.
I had to get all sorts of medication for before/after the treatment, plus some pills to help prevent the nausea etc...The side effects of the treatment are not something to think too much about. Apparently the first 3 days I'll be fine, I might even feel I could concur the world. But after I stop taking the meds after day 3, apparently I could get ill/have a sore body/ get skin issues etc...
I'd love to run away from it all, but I can't. For ±27 weeks this will be part of my life. Chemo every 3 weeks etc...etc...There's nothing I can do about it, except saying I don't want this, but that will also mean I might not get better like ever.
A few days ago I also went looking for a wig, because hair loss will happen between now and 3 weeks. I never thought it would be a big deal, but I never thought I'd find cancer or chemo a big deal. Because I could never imagine having to deal with it. But now that it's here...not so much fun.
Looking for wigs was fun, I took a friend/colleague with me and we laughed a lot. But it's still surreal. Just like this whole cancer thing is surreal, still.
I also visited the kids from my class at school this week. Was good and weird at the same time as well. And next week I'm not allowed to go there due to the chemo treatment. Basically, I'm homebound next week, sigh. Also can't sit in the sun anymore after tomorrow, can't have hot showers anymore, because it will hurt my skin too much.
I need to do some grocery shopping now, because I have no idea when else I'll be able to.
Five weeks ago I learned that I've got cancer, and I've still got many, many more weeks to go till this is all behind me.
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I had to get all sorts of medication for before/after the treatment, plus some pills to help prevent the nausea etc...The side effects of the treatment are not something to think too much about. Apparently the first 3 days I'll be fine, I might even feel I could concur the world. But after I stop taking the meds after day 3, apparently I could get ill/have a sore body/ get skin issues etc...
I'd love to run away from it all, but I can't. For ±27 weeks this will be part of my life. Chemo every 3 weeks etc...etc...There's nothing I can do about it, except saying I don't want this, but that will also mean I might not get better like ever.
A few days ago I also went looking for a wig, because hair loss will happen between now and 3 weeks. I never thought it would be a big deal, but I never thought I'd find cancer or chemo a big deal. Because I could never imagine having to deal with it. But now that it's here...not so much fun.
Looking for wigs was fun, I took a friend/colleague with me and we laughed a lot. But it's still surreal. Just like this whole cancer thing is surreal, still.
I also visited the kids from my class at school this week. Was good and weird at the same time as well. And next week I'm not allowed to go there due to the chemo treatment. Basically, I'm homebound next week, sigh. Also can't sit in the sun anymore after tomorrow, can't have hot showers anymore, because it will hurt my skin too much.
I need to do some grocery shopping now, because I have no idea when else I'll be able to.
Five weeks ago I learned that I've got cancer, and I've still got many, many more weeks to go till this is all behind me.
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