This is for those who think I'm sucked up into my own little world and have to be the most unhappy person walking around on this planet needing the best counseling ever: Thank you, but no. It's all very clear, I don't have an issue and there isn't anything wrong with me. Just because I did something you wouldn't do or can't understand doesn't make me an emotional wreck or whatever. Doesn't make me less sensitive and doesn't make me a freak either. Just because I like House and had to go through 3 seasons at once doesn't make me drown in my own sorrow and imaginary world. Please. Stop. Yes, I wrote you a 'goodbye letter'. Not because I can't handle my emotions, not because I'm stubborn, but because things are over between us. Because we're not on the same level anymore. Maybe we've never been, who knows. It. Doesn't. Matter.
One thing I regret is not informing you sooner about my views on friendships. I should have told from the beginning that no matter how intense a friendship might be, it's not something that will last forever. Cause we all grow as people and that often means we have to go our own way. You can desperately try to hold on to each other, or you can just look back at the past with a smile and eventually move on. I can do that. And not because I have an issue, or have completely lost my head, but because I can be at peace with myself and the things that happen. And it's funny you make it sound like I'M the one who's having issues, while in fact YOU'RE the one who's having issues. Cause you can't allow me to be me. You want me to be the kind of person I'm not. Am I perfect? Of course not. But I do know myself well enough to realize what is okay and what is not. Claiming me, ignoring me when needing you the most, trash-talk about me behind my back, pretending-to-care-yet-not-really cause really, when I feel low for a few days/weeks you just tell me to seek professional help. I don't need that. I just need you to be there for me. Like I've been there for you. And then the expectations, cause without living up to them you can't be a good friend. WTF? What actually makes someone a good friend? Showing up on birthdays? Being there on expected days? Isn't it more important that when you DO spend time together, that feels right? It shouldn't matter how often you talk to each other, it only should matter that when you do, it feels right!
And for thinking that, it makes me some kind of freak who needs professional help? And you just want to me to go down on my knees and tell you I'm sorry? For what? I'm not sorry. And I'm not saying I'm right about all this either. Just like you can't pretend you're right about all this. Let's just say we're both right. Can you let go of me now and please just not turn me into a person I'm not? Thank you.
I'm capable of understanding my own emotions and feelings. And when I feel calm about something, it's because things are really okay. And not because I'm running away from whatever it is I should be running from. Okay? Okay!
Really...I hate it when people try to think for me and will not talk TO me. It's so easy to just talk to each other about a person, but in the end you will have created a story that will make you feel better, but which isn't true at all. Gosh...SO annoying!!!!
One thing I regret is not informing you sooner about my views on friendships. I should have told from the beginning that no matter how intense a friendship might be, it's not something that will last forever. Cause we all grow as people and that often means we have to go our own way. You can desperately try to hold on to each other, or you can just look back at the past with a smile and eventually move on. I can do that. And not because I have an issue, or have completely lost my head, but because I can be at peace with myself and the things that happen. And it's funny you make it sound like I'M the one who's having issues, while in fact YOU'RE the one who's having issues. Cause you can't allow me to be me. You want me to be the kind of person I'm not. Am I perfect? Of course not. But I do know myself well enough to realize what is okay and what is not. Claiming me, ignoring me when needing you the most, trash-talk about me behind my back, pretending-to-care-yet-not-really cause really, when I feel low for a few days/weeks you just tell me to seek professional help. I don't need that. I just need you to be there for me. Like I've been there for you. And then the expectations, cause without living up to them you can't be a good friend. WTF? What actually makes someone a good friend? Showing up on birthdays? Being there on expected days? Isn't it more important that when you DO spend time together, that feels right? It shouldn't matter how often you talk to each other, it only should matter that when you do, it feels right!
And for thinking that, it makes me some kind of freak who needs professional help? And you just want to me to go down on my knees and tell you I'm sorry? For what? I'm not sorry. And I'm not saying I'm right about all this either. Just like you can't pretend you're right about all this. Let's just say we're both right. Can you let go of me now and please just not turn me into a person I'm not? Thank you.
I'm capable of understanding my own emotions and feelings. And when I feel calm about something, it's because things are really okay. And not because I'm running away from whatever it is I should be running from. Okay? Okay!
Really...I hate it when people try to think for me and will not talk TO me. It's so easy to just talk to each other about a person, but in the end you will have created a story that will make you feel better, but which isn't true at all. Gosh...SO annoying!!!!