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2 October 2007 19:21Fuck! FUCK! I've been teaching for 6 weeks and I'm already stressed out. In the last couple of weeks we had to do so many extra things, had so many extra meetings and we're not done with them either. My head is so full of stuff, that last night I just wanted to enter my bed and not coming out of it at all anymore.
Today a colleague of mine informed me that tonight we had to discuss some problem kids and I was like "But we also decided to use tonight for planning the big parent's night that's going to take place next week." When will we have to do that then?
And just so many other things added up to the pile and at one point I just wanted to cry.
Last night I laid awake for a couple of hours and I even tried to figure out how much money I need to be able to live from. So that maybe I can cut a day.
How fucked up is that?
But my head is so full of so much stuff, and also the fact that I'm teaching 3 different classes again isn't helping. I love my own class, but it's hard to bond with a class you only teach for 2 or 3 hours.
I'm frustrated, and I should just talk about it to my boss, but I can't, cause I'm stupid like that...
Today a colleague of mine informed me that tonight we had to discuss some problem kids and I was like "But we also decided to use tonight for planning the big parent's night that's going to take place next week." When will we have to do that then?
And just so many other things added up to the pile and at one point I just wanted to cry.
Last night I laid awake for a couple of hours and I even tried to figure out how much money I need to be able to live from. So that maybe I can cut a day.
How fucked up is that?
But my head is so full of so much stuff, and also the fact that I'm teaching 3 different classes again isn't helping. I love my own class, but it's hard to bond with a class you only teach for 2 or 3 hours.
I'm frustrated, and I should just talk about it to my boss, but I can't, cause I'm stupid like that...
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