I feel so fucking rejected

I feel so fucking rejected by everyone, and ignored, and so damn unimportant.
I think I was right all the time: I'm a worthless shit. People don't like me I guess, they probably will say they will, but i don't really believe that's true. Other people are way better than me, more popular, gaining much more love than me. I'm just a stupid, worthless shit...I'm fat, ugly, weird, stupid looking and unloved...I hate being me..I really wish someone would be there for me 100%, would always be there for me, all the time. I wish more people would like me...I wish i was dead...life is killing me anyway, so why not do it quick..if someone would hand over some pills, maybe I would...

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you know..i would like to get some credit for my work...but even THAT should not be given to me in whatever kind of way. People can just use me for whatever reason they want and strike the credits...I'm so sick of this...so, so sick...i feel invisible...and still...so fucking damn unimportant. No one notices me...I'm just a shadow passing through, and if people can get rid of me or just pass me without noticing it, that will just make their day...

According to all statistics, I'm not depressed, just down...so even in that world I don't exist. I'm just an empty creature, who you can hurt over and over and over again...