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20 March 2005 22:10This weekend was my first weekend off since a long time. And I enjoyed it. I pretty much did nothing, went out for lunch yesterday, bought me some treats and today I stayed in all day, watching CSI. And tomorrow I'll enter the real world again. I'm not ready for it yet. It's not that I don't want to, I'm just not ready for it yet. I need a couple more days to rediscover myself again. Work distracts me from myself. Without having a job to go to, I feel a lot more free. It allows me to think and feel.
Weird feelings I have lately btw. I think about Australia constantly these last couple of weeks. When it's on TV, I watch it, feeling like I'm really there, or have been there already. Then I watch pictures of people meeting Tori, on some she hugs them. And I just "know" what it feels like, even though I've never been in that situation.
I watch people laying down on a hospital stretcher, taken away for surgery, and i just know what it feels like. And again, I haven't been in that situation.
It just happens over and over again, I see things on TV, or in real life, and I just FEEL them. Really do feel them. Like they are happening to me, or like they are some kind of deja-vu. It's so weird, but not at all scary though. In a way, it feels comforting, or normal at least.
Anyway...I'm rambling. I love to ramble. Love to have my mind spinning around. I love to just sit and have all these thoughts and theories entering my head. I love to be alone and just be and have these things happening. Dream a little dream for me, travel through my own dreams and thoughts, without anyone disturbing me. I love it. Just escaping life, and entering my own little world. I can't wait for the next holiday, with the sun shining outside, thunderstorms and just me, my thoughts and I...
Weird feelings I have lately btw. I think about Australia constantly these last couple of weeks. When it's on TV, I watch it, feeling like I'm really there, or have been there already. Then I watch pictures of people meeting Tori, on some she hugs them. And I just "know" what it feels like, even though I've never been in that situation.
I watch people laying down on a hospital stretcher, taken away for surgery, and i just know what it feels like. And again, I haven't been in that situation.
It just happens over and over again, I see things on TV, or in real life, and I just FEEL them. Really do feel them. Like they are happening to me, or like they are some kind of deja-vu. It's so weird, but not at all scary though. In a way, it feels comforting, or normal at least.
Anyway...I'm rambling. I love to ramble. Love to have my mind spinning around. I love to just sit and have all these thoughts and theories entering my head. I love to be alone and just be and have these things happening. Dream a little dream for me, travel through my own dreams and thoughts, without anyone disturbing me. I love it. Just escaping life, and entering my own little world. I can't wait for the next holiday, with the sun shining outside, thunderstorms and just me, my thoughts and I...