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12 November 2010 00:05Had a study day yesterday. Or...study afternoon actually. I usually loathe them, but this time the workshops they had organized were interesting. Went to a workshop called Kids Skills. Interesting really. About how you can help children who have a problem, or aren't really good at something, to reach there goal in a positive, stimulating way. Second workshop was about how to communicate with children. That kinda hit home. Was really sad it only lasted for an hour, cause the things that were said were really interesting and made me realize that's something I want to develop more. So the children coaching stuff should be a good choice.
Anyway...yeah...that second workshop hit me hard. Because I realized, once more, how I lack any self esteem and how I so often think such negative, depressing thoughts. I always bring myself down. There were people there who talked from experience, and they all just sounded confident: they believed what they did was the right thing etc...I always, always doubt myself. I always find myself worthless, not really good at anything. That's just locked away within me so deeply that it sort of became my lifestyle: I don't even know how to do it any other way. Kinda sad really.
All those sessions with Emil helped me a lot, but this is such a major issue. Because I hide my true self from the world, but also from myself. I still don't take in my space and that hit me hard.
Anyway...yeah...that second workshop hit me hard. Because I realized, once more, how I lack any self esteem and how I so often think such negative, depressing thoughts. I always bring myself down. There were people there who talked from experience, and they all just sounded confident: they believed what they did was the right thing etc...I always, always doubt myself. I always find myself worthless, not really good at anything. That's just locked away within me so deeply that it sort of became my lifestyle: I don't even know how to do it any other way. Kinda sad really.
All those sessions with Emil helped me a lot, but this is such a major issue. Because I hide my true self from the world, but also from myself. I still don't take in my space and that hit me hard.
